My biggest enemy to freedom is me. Being a person who sees things in great detail is a blessing and a curse. It gives me a high degree of accuracy in many situations. But more often than not, it turns inward. It is the log and the speck in reverse, producing a kind of continual feeling of guilt that is frequently not a picture of how things truly are. Matthew 7:3-5 details Jesus’ words about the person who is able to be critical of a tiny speck in others, but excuse a log
I second guess myself a lot. Doing a rather harsh self search is second nature for me. Guilt has not been my friend. Most of the time, it rules with an iron fist, dominating my senses to the point where it is all but impossible to hear from God. Yes, there are those who need guilt to be more active. Without a conscience, man becomes sick. But guilt that is generated by self is a tyrant. It possesses a person so completely that there is very little room for God to work.
Surrender is not easy or fun. It goes against every instinct of our being. Add anger to the mix and surrender becomes that much more difficult. So how do we get things handed over to God? Trying to tamp anger down is a futile effort. The more you squeeze it, the more toxic it gets. A key word is processing. My last blog, “Anger” talked about submitting to what God is saying or to what He is doing. Once we clearly hear the voice of God, surrender is easier … but most o